Thursday, July 28, 2005
2:55 PM
okie..moi com is sotted..on da nite where everythin is suppose to be clear..although its not..when moi sis hand da com over..it jus hand..and i was like..wad a time..and is cant even restart lor..haix..tink even da com is mad bout mi la..duhh..
22.july.fridae
went online and chatted..
dunno why it jus became so serious..
why cant things be worked-out in a better way..
[i dun understand]
chatted till 4 plus..
flooded the living-room when everyone was in their swt-dreamx..
i dunno if i m rite or wrong..i dunno wad m i doin..things jus got worst..
i m like..[[LOST]]
things came too fast for mi to react..
hmm..
didnt slp da nite..
eyes were swollen in da mornin..
went to ve breakfast with moi family..
den went to tuition..in e afternoon..
waited for at the void deck near my house..
went to..''talk''.?
hmm..
empty promises.. [i hate 11]
but..aiya..i also dunno why i promise when i know its..
impossible to kip..
i dun tink there is a nid to rush..
but anyway..tis is not i wanted..
onli realise da time when its 10plus..
where i ve got mani missed called..
den decide to go home..
wanted to use com de..but my sis was faster den mi..idiot..
den i waited for so long lor..and tats when moi com hang and spoilt.!
idiot idiot idiot..
still..theres nothin i could do..
even the com is mad at mi lasSs..
tried slp-in..but jus couldnt..
whenever i close my eyes..
da picture of everythin appears..
didnt slp for tat nite too..
spent da nite tinkin..and tinkin..and tinkin..
24.july.sundae
had da dui trainin ay 127..
12ppl came..
i dunno if its the last trainin tgt or wad..
jus totally no mood..
yeah..coach finally allow mi to plae 3on3..hahah..
hmm..spend da 3rd nite tinkin..
i still cant find anythin worth out of it..
nvm..finally..got to slp..
25.july.mondae.
had F&N test..
no mood to do..didnt some..
but mostly blank..slept for da whole paper..
after F&N..
had s.s test..
no mood to do..left da paper clean..
didnt even hand da paper in..dotx..dunno wad m i doin..
was wonderin to watch our Cgalx play a not..
hmm..but lessons were borin la..
so i went..
26.july.tuesdae.
had another s.s test..
ansar bluf us..sae thursdae..argh..
anyway..left it blank too..
no mood to do lasSs..
*nobody understands la..
its a negative negatve way..
no one benifits..
[[you left mi clueless..]]
its not endin here..
because it will never end..
we are in the middle of nowhere..
i ve tried watever i could..
but i ve got no response..
['dunno' doesnt help in anyway]
haix..
[i didnt know tat..hurtin someone..will end up hurtin both..]
