Friday, March 31, 2006
7:52 AM
jus finished my ham-cheese bread in the com lab..heex
its bloody boring here..
f&n suck..
enjoying peanut butter m&m..
still hungry.!!
thankx hui shi for your peanut butter kit kat..
its over,its over..
wats done cannot be undone..
for the first and the last time..
i love and hate the team..
i hate for the bloody attitude shown..
i love for the care and concern given..
perhaps,i lil more discipline is needed..
but tats certainly not my job anymore..
as coach says..
"tis year's captain fail to do her job..
its because she cant control and motivate the team.."
ya rite..
everything you see and say is rite..
cause you have nv entered our world..
wad you hear and see,and
wat we see and understand is a different part..
so m i disappointed wit everythin from the veri begining..
its not fair.!
NEVER FAIR..
from wad ure doing and saying..
you have nv kept your words..
i jus cant understand wat's so wrong with it that
you nid to sprinkle salt on my wound..
and since ure so unhappy with watever i do,
why do you still make me do tis and that..
it will only add to my hurt and your anger..
i cant help it but to say ure basied.!
for all that i ve been doing..
all you need is to scold and make me fall..
i took so much time to step out,
i'll somehow still get scolded..
so wats the point of everything now.?
i'm seriously tired of training..
training so hard to get a scolding..
i swear i will not shear a tear..
but my tear jus cant hold the injustice..
holding on 40 mintues for all important game
to let others attack and play as
they like because they can score.?
and wad my job was to chase back for all their miss passes
and lousy defend tat allows opp to fast break us.?
how much injuries have i collected through the season.?
i jus dowan to say..
keeping them till i old and suffer.?
i'm jus holding on..
but i bey i could not anymore..
of cause i did done some wrongs..
but despite how much wrong others did,
will nv be as sinful as how lil i did..
tis call wad you called the special offer
for captains huh..
i hate the feelin of losing..
not on court but to myself..
i'm sure no one wans it...
but it jus came to us..
nothin can ever be done ever again..
i didnt wan to leave..
but there will not be a sencond chance..
